LONG POST ALERT!'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger; When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
these few days have been rather tumultuous, and I have so much to start with :/ and my speakers are still spoilt, DAMN. can someone help me? there are renovations beside my house now so it's really noisy and annoying grawr :[
MONDAYschool was okay i guess, except for those gym actions which I've failed to master/failed. but besides that monday's schedule are okay so I don't really think it's bad. after school, went with Charlyne and Cheryl to j8 to watch
Pirates of the Carribean :D gosh it was simply amazing okay. who cares about those reviewers saying it's disjointed, it was brilliant! I didn't watch the last 45mins of the very first one, and I was very pissed cos youtube didn't have and I couldn't listen due to those losuy faulty speakers grrrrr >:( so I was slightly lost here and there. I think I could have enjoyed it further if I watched the whole first muvee >:( But anyway the cinema was very packed and I wasn't expecting that hoho :D and that Octopus! it was like URGHHH. BUTBUTBUT johnny depp was very comical in a serious, pirate-like way. don't know how to say either. orlando bloom was much suave in the first movie, and now he's with elizabeth whose so freaking skinny i don't like anymore. I don't like the ending!! argh I'm so pissed but I will definitely go watch the last one. and then I wanted to go toilet cos I was very urgent but Cheryl and Charlyne wanted to stay back cos they said there was smth after the credits. but it turned out a waste of time and grrr I was so frustrated ): anyway do go watch it! :D
TUESDAYI don't really recall what happened, but only that tuesday is HUMANITIES DAY. geog test was blah, and the rest of the lessons were wayyy boring. I
almost slept man. and Nath wants me to check lit files. aiyo I don't know how to check since they're like a gabongzillionthings inside? and I never update the contents page since May? Oh god!
TODAYbad bad day. in the morning when I was walking down the stairs I LITERALLY stepped on MrsTian's toes and she said " You want to injure me is it?" Like hello, what's your problem I apologised to you and if you're saying that in a joking manner then I guess it's okay and if you're not then yeah I want to step on your toes and I want to stepstepstep until they become bound feet. Okay that was stupid but I don't like that superficial witch. Apparently there are like a thousand and one nice shows tonight, GreenLight(okay that may be gross but I like) and SINGAPORE IDOL!<3! and project runway! wth I simply love watching teevee man (: i'm so confused and I know I shouldn't feel one bit like this cos I have other much important things to do. like studying.if the world was trouble-free, terrorism free and all that, I'd watched teevee man. okay my sentence structure is horrible :( but anyway, I was caught during English lesson for blog-hopping by MsNair. omg shit I was so freaking shocked when she was standing behind me and I was happily reading and I discovered and I was like "omg shit I'm dead meat" argh I'm sucha loser but luckily she just gave me a warning and me the saint HAHA:D shan't complain (: anyway after school got back chem test, and I must say I was very disappointed ): although I looked like I was very happy and all that ): I really did not expect to do so badly, and I really did study very hard for this test and I wanted to do well but it didn't live up to expectations in the end. I know there are ppl who are worse than me, but barely scraping the mark just ain't enough. Compared to others who got much better than me, I am really lousy. And I told you, I simply don't have chemistry with chemistry D: Sometimes you just do not reap what you sow. and the feeling sucks, cos there are ppl who keep reiterating that they didn't study very hard for the test, and tadah they got much much higher than you. which is just like rubbing salt into your wounds, and sarcastically saying that I scored well with little effort, and you on the other hand, no matter how much you mug, you just won't be able to excel. that kinda remarks piss me off. so don't do it. nowadays my grades aren't that fantastic either, and if I continue like this I'm gonna get into a bad subject combination which majorly sucks :'( I kept singing McFly's It's all about you today cuz it's superdee brilliant and catchy. I've got a gabongzillion things to do but I'm here blogging. I'll really have to soar now, after crawling for so long(: Oh man this sucks do you know. You tell yourself"Hey you'd better complete this task by___" and in the end you get distracted and you never get things done; which is bad, and this cycle repeats itself, and at times you simply want to murder yourself cuz you're not keeping on track.
I adapt, to those around me, cuz I would rather have mutual relationships with everyone rather than having very good friends and friends whom you hate. I don't think you will understand, but I do adapt to people's needs, trying to suit them, maintaining as casual friends.Difficult to understand, but I realised it's the best solutiona after so long.
I don't know what's wrong, but getting stuck in between is tough it's impossible to know who to trust. That big word called Trust, it's important. Unfathomable it may seem at times, but sometimes you think you have complete trust in someone which is ultra close to you yet as time passes by, you are caught in disillusionment. The tension is simply unbearable. You want to trust that person, yet another person who is equally trustworthy and close to you tells you things about that person which leaves you wondering if that are her true colours, which happen to decrease the level of trust in that person, so much so that you doubt that person, you wonder if that person is like this. You wonder if that person is so deemed by your equally close friend to be like this, but a few recent spate of events has reinforced your doubts about that person, and you think there's some truth in those things, so much so that the trust between you both is slowly disintegrating. I really don't know, but I'm sure time will tell.
You&me= Tr
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